Rising above the Labyrinth

"I have approximate answers and possible beliefs and different degrees of certainty about different things, but I'm not absolutely sure of anything, and many things I don't know anything about, such as whether it means anything to ask why we're here, and what the question might mean. I might think abit a little bit, but if I can't figure it out, then I go on to something else. But I don't have to know an answer.... I don't feel frightened by not knowing things, by being lost in the mysterious universe without having any purpose, which is the way it really is, as far as I can tell, possibly. It doesn't frighten me."~Richard Phillips Feynman

I have been on an interesting journey over the last year or so, one that I am not entirely sure how I started, nor how it eventually ended. What I do know is that I was stressing over being 174 and trying to get to 169.9 pounds in June of 2008. In October 2009, I had creeped up, to somewhere in the neighborhood of 185, even though I was training for two back to back marathons. By September 2010, I topped out at 217.

There were a number of changes that may have spurred this on, a significant one being my generally sad performance in the two marathons. I had been working pretty hard at the training program, but seemed to crash and burn almost from the start of the first one - like the flame in my heart just went out. My desire to train for anything was just simply gone.

Since then, my focus has been on work - and of course, that on which one puts his attention grows. I've earned a promotion, which is great; unfortunately that means the travelling increases, and my ability to train becomes increasingly difficult, now that I am ready to move back into that flow. I have risen up above the labyrinth, and found my bearings, and am ready to find my way back into a healthy lifestyle.

The good news is that I have already shed 12 pounds, and am down to 205. I have a long way to go before I hit the healthy BMI, but I am not going to obsess on it. I just have to move steadily at it. One step at a time, no pun intended.