Bogged Down

Since I taking my vacation, I have had a really hard time getting back in the swing of my program. And the heat hasn't helped at all. And feeling a little sick since Orlando. And taking all that time to think up excuses.

I am trying to figure out why I seem to get to a point where I am making progress, losing weight, feeling good, and then I start to wind down, give up in a sense. I don't like to think I am lazy or undisciplined, but I really think I am. More often than not I end up trailing off and not really finishing. I am starting to feel it now. Right back to where I was when I started this whole journey back in September.

Earlier this week, I was feeling really run down. I think I picked up a cold in Orlando; maybe on the plane. Stuffy nose, just tired. Even today, I felt really tired.

At this point, I have 1,875 days to complete an Ironman. I need to keep that goal in mind. There is so much to do to make that happen. I really can't let up now.

• 26 mile run this weekend. I think that will get me going.



• Napa to Sonoma Half Marathon the next weekend.

Now that I am thinking about it, it may be because I am not yet at the goal I wanted for my birthday, and I can't really see a way to get to it. I was targeting 35 by 35. I only hit 15. Kinda depressing, really.

I don't know how that makes me feel - to acknowledge that I failed. Miserably.

“We all have dreams. But in order to make dreams come into reality, it takes an awful lot of determination, dedication, self-discipline, and effort.”

Jesse Owens quotes (American Athlete, 4 time Gold Medalist in Track and Field at the 1936 Olympic Games, 1913-1980)

It's time to get serious again. Back on the plan. I can do this, and do it well.

Go Team!